Saturday, November 19, 2011

Long, long overdue

Well, my friends.  I'm sorry for the extreme lack of posting.  I realize it's been almost three weeks since my last post, and that is almost inexcusable.  I say "almost" because I think I have a pretty good excuse.

I'm pregnant!


How does that equal an excuse for not posting?  Well, as some of you may already know, I am cursed to be one of those women who suffers from something called "morning sickness".  Honestly, I'd like to take the idiot who called it "morning" sickness out back and shoot them because they had no idea what they were talking about.  I think "pregnancy sickness" or "all-day-and-through-the-night sickness" might be more accurate.

I feel extremely nauseous all.the.time, not to mentioned exhausted from making body parts all day, and my lovely friend, Diclectin, my anti-nausea medication, only adds to my drowsiness.  (For those who are unaware, particularly any American readers, Diclectin is a morning sickness medication that is available here in Canada.  Unfortunately, it is not approved in the U.S.)  Said combination of nausea and fatigue have made my desire for posting -- or doing anything other than laying on the couch-- non-existent.  I am woefully behind on even reading any of the blogs I normally follow, sad but true.

I wish I could tell you that the situation will improve, and I'll magically start posting more frequently now that I've come clean regarding my reason for not posting.  However, I don't know if that's going to be the case.  Pregnancy hormones wreak havoc on my mental status, and I haven't been particularly struck with anything inspirational to say.  The Diclectin has taken the edge off the nausea, but I'm not finding it as effective this time around.  I spend most of my days trying to remember to keep eating to prevent the nausea from getting worse, but it is a constant battle, and one that I tire quickly of fighting.  I hate being so obsessed with my stomach.

I wish I could tell you I've been a tower of strength, leaning on my Lord for all my daily needs and relying on Him to carry me through, but that wouldn't entirely be true.  In all honestly, the past week or so, I've done a really good job of wallowing in self-pity and allowing myself to sink down into the mire of feeling miserable.  It's easy to do when you feel crummy all the time, but no more forgivable.  I'm trying to do better at this, and I would appreciate your prayers.

So there you have it.  I will try not to take so long to post again.  Maybe I can get in a better habit of posting at least once a week.  It's not quite the frequency you're all used to from me, but until I start feeling a little better, you'll all just have to make do.  Thank you for your understanding, dear faithful readers.