Friday, April 16, 2004

A much needed break

How good does it feel to have three out of two exams done, to be able to sit down for a few minutes here at my computer and just relax with nothing major hanging over my head! The worst is over. It feels like it's been an absolute eternity since I've been able to truly relax, have some time to myself and not worry about anything. I think I just might have to take a bath...

It never ceases to amaze me how good I've become at taking each day as it comes, not sitting around dwelling on the past or agonizing over the future. Granted, I haven't had a whole lot of time to do those things, yet I've noticed how easy it is to trust God to get you through this day, rather than worrying about the days to come. There's something to be said for living in the moment, dealing with life as it comes to you and leaving the rest for God to handle. We're not the one's in control anyway; and as much as we'd like to be, I'd have to say I think we're far better off letting Him handle everything.

I have good news: I got an email from the registrar's office yesterday, and there is actually a possibility I might be able to swing being in choir next year. (For those who don't know I currently have a class conflict in that area.) But it seems that they're thinking about offering another section of that class because it's already full and they'll need room for the first years coming's hoping. I would have appreciated a more solid answer on that one, but this is a start. I can't say that I like having to treat this year like it could be my last year in choir, but there it is...I've got hope again at any rate.

Thursday, April 08, 2004

The end is near

I am pleased to report that I am finally finished all of my papers. I do not need to tell you how this fills me with such an incredible feeling of relief, especially since I managed to accomplish it with relatively few misshaps and computer failures...(although that cursed incident this morning where my A drive failed on me...I do not understand, I probably never will).

I am going home tonight. It's been six weeks and so much has happened since then that it feels like an eternity. As always I return home a different person, having experienced things I never dreamed possible. I never cease to be amazed at God's timing for things. "Why now?" I ask, "What is so special about this time?" The hardest part is adjusting. I'm having a hard enough time trying to reconcile myself to this new person I've become, let alone having to fit that new me into the life I've got back home. Yet I can't wait to see my family again. My kid brother is probably all grown up...I'm sure the gap in our heights has only increased since February. :) It will be odd not living at home with them this summer.

Thursday, April 01, 2004

score for not actually having to give the choir a lecture...

*breathing huge sigh of relief right now*

A choir rant

well I'm pleased to report that my computer is more or less fixed. That nasty Golden Casino is no longer plaguing me and Internet Explorer is running fine. Points for friends who know their way around a computer... I've also basically finished paper number two of three...always a good thing. Now for that final chore. If I could only stay motivated long enough to get it done.

In other news, I've been asked to speak to the choir on behalf of some of the members who are feeling rather perturbed at our terrible performance in practice yesterday. Goodness knows I've been feeling a great deal of personal frustration over the overall lack of participation and willingness to put forth effort in the choir. I thought my first year was bad, the attitudes this year are just down-right disrespectful. If you don't want to be in the choir, then drop out. Don't bring the rest of us down with you, especially since for some of us, this choir means something. I would not have come back to Redeemer for a second year if it had not been for the choir, and knowing that there is a good possibility I might not be able to participate in my fourth year because of a class conflict is absolutely devastating. I have no idea what I'm going to say to them all, probably something to do with all of this, and hopefully something that makes sense without too much rambling. I know we can do better, as long as people start working for it. I pray that we all will remember it is God we are praising with our talents, and we should be giving Him our all, not some half-hearted attempt at our all.